trying to FOCUS, thinking out loud, sort of, well, on screen at least quietly.....ish

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH what do you do when you have so many ideas and so many plans for work that you don’t know what to start or where or why??????????????????????

Maybe my subconscious is telling me then that i do need to do more planning, to pare down after lots of samples and sketches to what really attracts me. The more the merrier, the more to choose from, again when is enough enough, is there such a thing as too much to look at, to get excited about????

I am noticing certain things are cropping up again and again, and yeah yeah,  it happens in progression as you keep at the sketching/painting/stitch sampling as ideas build on each other but there’s an almost equally large pile of things that didn’t turn my crank, so maybe i’ve finally decided on a visceral level what my lexicon is?

I don’t know that this is a “requirement” for a “serious” artist………somehow it seems that most do have a recognizable vocabulary. You may not see it immediately, but there’s something that tells you it’s by artist X or artist Z, right? And along the way i’ve started wondering why i consider the work i’ve done in neutrals is my “serious” work, but the brightly coloured (with a few exceptions) aren’t???? Is that  part of the mystery too?

I made myself a list to try to focus. It got rather silly in a free associative way, with some very strange things creeping in (which i won’t share –ya think i’m weird as it is, not adding fuel to the fire), but it boiled down to only a few things really: bees and honeycombs, hoodoo colours and shapes (hoodoo as in the geological formation, not voodoo), body parts (brains, bones, hearts), asemic writing, poetry (text), more “organic” colours (whether naturally dyed or not, softer muted shades of almost everything…..) and lots of stitch texture, whether by hand or machine.

I’m going to re-organize my work space and Stuff and Stash to (hopefully) keep that energy constant.

I’m also going to make myself a big sign and hang it (metaphysically) from my stoodio ceiling and all it will say is  “FOCUS”. Otherwise there are just too many calories in that pantry…….

Or maybe i just need more sleep.

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